kill the bored n sleepy~~

this is zenzen wakarimasen!!lololo..
i really cant focus much in the noon..
midnite is the best time to do my benkioo..

the novels i used to read repeatedly..x terbilang bape kali aku ulang..hohoho tade a terase sgt habih duit aku..sebab banyak kali aku ulang..hihihi


the novels i had with me now..da tak muat the casing wawa bagi as my birthday presents..wawa, nak lagi satu boleh??hehehe

this is the note for tomorrow's test..clinical skill, general systemic state, hyperthermia and fever..haishhh test je kejenye bila sampai hujg2 sem ni..sampai nak final pon tak terase sgt..due to too many exams stret skali ngan final..the differents is just, final sit accordg the list n long essays q's..for the tests, duduk suke2 hati n short essays q's..hmmphh..

this is my hang out frens kat vet fac, kat upm..ni during sillaturrahim..we laugh together we cry together..tp mostly we laugh 'overload' together..especially time mkn kt cafe..sorry la for those yg rase terganggu ngan our laughter, nak wat cane kitorg mmg kuat gelak..huahuahua

hekk this is my lil n big bro..muke serius cam pk masalh negara padahal tgh maen game..ape tah name game tu..aku mmg hopeless bab2 game nih..hihihi and y this picture sesat here??dunno, just miss them i think..even asek gaduh jee, but they are my only siblings..air dicencang takan putus kan..hmm wawa asked, "asal muke korang laen2?" huhu aku pon tataw asal...heheh

and this is the pic at my blog's title..the sawah at my village..perasan x??ade bayg2 2 orang naek moto tu??haaa that's me and wawa..ni mase wawa nanges2 ajak aku pegi sawah..hahah tade la tak nanges pon..during the last day wawa at my house..

huhh hilg jgk sket my sleepy..heheheheheh sambung tgk ouran high school host club lak laaa..till then adios~~

awaken??

bismillahirrahmanirrahim
saturday..i've been awake since 3 a.m. i had drunk a glass of nescafe so i cant sleep even i feel like to sleep..but my eyes just open..hope to have the ability of sleeping with open eyes..hehe btw i dont know what to write either..just randomly typing anything out from heart..i believe that those from heart are actually ilham from Him..

• 2 weeks more before to final..wahh cant believe i'll finish my 6th sem just in a short time..

• some tests are not settle yet..the postponed tests, the becoming tests, the oral test..

• the subjects for next sem x key in yet..timetable for next sem boleh thn sesak nafas laa bile aku tgk..

• practical for this sem still on pending status..haihh ikan kat kedah tu jual mahal..ayam kat pahg lak x sudi...sedih3 at last, we get CP at JB..johor again.

• hishhh so many things x study yet..final is around the corner je..waaa takut3..

well takut2 aku nih still can spend some of my precious time reading novels, watching movies, outing and going dinner..hahah dinner..sigh..merit punye pasal..janji halal..heheh neway, i really need to plan my time start from now onwards..hurm so paah, relaks lagi??heh pegi study sane laa..test towering till final, bak kata kak sarah, study for final too..haha somehow i'm realize, it is so hard doing this course..to be excellent its very hard but not impossible..nothing is impossible kan...Allah pon dah pesan dlam the one and only love letter, "lepas keksusahan mesti ada kesenangan"..siap berulang lagi ayt tu dalm surah al insyirah..so just give the best that you have and believe in Him..

~kelas petang rabu~

bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
err i'm dont have the insprtn to study yet tomorrow i have radio test
so i wanna fill my time with this..haha (gila punya budak)
picture above is my lecture note..the kertas kajang one is my friend's..mine the A4 paper tu..
obviously mine one very unorganised..haha btw let's take a look one by one..errrr




hehe this is the close up view for my friend's note..
i'm really respect la this girl..
very comited copying the notes..(x angkat kepala wa ckp luu)
hohoh haa lupe mau bilang, this class the lect refuse to give us the 'precious note'..so we need to copy laa












this one was mine..klu di teliti one by one..
hekk apebende la aku tulih nihh
becoz of too boring, this is what i did in that class
hurmm i'm the one who will salin the words from the lect's mouth..
and i dont like to salin note from the slide..
therefore this is the outcome of what i salin
let see anothe pic

the one i 'boxed' is what he said..i'm copying it,,hahah sound interesting..maybe he was upset becoz some of our classmate going out for a while..i dunno the reason..but this is what he conclude..lallalala
"student nowadays going out during class, reason to urinate..but may be it is actually the way of their expressing DISGUSTING to the lecturer..haha tak sangka dia nak ckp gitu..seyes!!
ok dah pkl 9..aku mau ngadap radiology lak..hehe wish me luck, pals!!adios~~~

yessss i did it!!

bismillahirrahmanirrahim
hohoh nothing much..im just greatly happy n satisfied that i managed to get versus today...
good thing that my anaesthesiology practical was in the afternoon..
so after finished the presentation, around 930 blah from fac...
straight away went to PWTC..just to grab that ::VERSUS::
fuhh i'm just frankly thought as if i am like 'this' in my study..
i can reserve one place in a dean list every sem..

~~'this' refer how semangat i am when i'm run for smthg i like..

just wanna acknowledge my bff, kufarhana, thanks for introduced me to 'Hlovate'..huhu

S.T.U.D.Y post mortem~~

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Erm aku tetibe terase nak throw something tonite..well before I started, just to remind..this is just my thought, my concern..not to hurt anyone..i’m write this as my reminder too..well more to remind myself actually..sape rase nak amek pengajaran, aku berbesar hati nak kongsi..sape nak terase lebih2 go ahead..korg punye hati, korang punye pasal..

Student life is very hectic..everyone got their own aim, perception, understanding, study style n bla bla bla..everyone want great result, great score..including me..but klu setakat mengharap je, tak payah laa..success does not come to you..you the one who need to find it..aku selalu gak stay alone n think..knpe eh this fella didn’t study much but still can score..i study the whole night, the week before but still I can’t get the best result at all..why??where’s my mistake??which part did I’m lacking of actually??..(aarghhh macam2 la terbang masuk otak aku)

Then I remembered something..someone said before, lebih kurg gini la ayat die “orang cina tuhan bagi rezeki, most of them kaya2 sebab the son take care of the parents..but org melayu bile da kawen sume ikut bini which sepatutnye the husband kene dahulukan the mother”..yup I agreed..so I think in case of x dpt score ni mesti ade sebab laen..even study mcm mane skali pon, mesti ade redha Tuhan..selalunye student willing to stay until 2,3 a.m to study..da penat tdo..ape lah salahnye before sleep tu solat hajat ke solat taubat ke..then boleh mintak doa supaya ilmu yg dibaca tu melekat kat otak..to make it worse, ade lak yg tdo lmbt2 tu karang nnt terlepas subuh..huh camne la ilmu tu nk berkat..

Actually, I think to score doesn’t depend on how long time you take to study..there are so many other things which influence it..ade lagi situasi yg aku cukup benci..selalu je aku dgr on the day nak exam tu ayat-ayat gini “aku x stadi laa” “aku tak ingat la” bla bla bla..ayat aku x stadi laa tu paling aku benci..for me, it is impossible for someone didn’t study before exam..ptuihh tipu laa..klu betul2 x stadi aku leh terima..tp klu stadi, tp ckp x stadi ape kes??bukan nye rugi pon klu ko ckp ko stadi babe..ni da consider lying jugak laa..then da menipu pulak, igt leh berkat ke ilmu klu tipu org..lu pikir la sendiri Paah..for those yg suke ckp “aku tak ingat laa”..aku rase better don’t said this..well, whatever we said is actually can consider we pray for it right..then klu da asek ckp aku tak igt tu aku tak igt ni, boleh ke ko igt nnt??? Da elok2 hafal mintak bg tak igt lak..tak paham aku..

Berkat ilmu ni jugak sebenarnya come from the action jugak..hati2 bile nak wat something..aku pna alami satu keadaan..esoknye ade test ape ntah..the night before, aku ngumpat org2 sekeliling aku right after I’m finished study..then on the test, in the exam hall, I can’t even think..amek ko!!org sepatutnye after study, back to Him..pray for peace during the test, doa ilmu2 tu dikembalikan saat diperlukan, doa tak ditutup pintu hati..but what I did??talking bad bout others..hah!!come on la Paah, Allah tu adil, He can do anything, sape la ko Paah nk lawan kuasa Allah..bayangkan dah la ko bagi pahala kering kat org yg ko ngumpat tu, then kalau Allah bukak pintu hati die, semua yang ko baca Allah bagi kat die, boleh je nak jadi klu Allah nak kan..well pendek kate, fikir dulu sebelum buat something yg x sepatutnye dibuat..every action you do, will back to you..mungkin bukan dalam bentuk yg sama, tp balasan tetap ada..

Hurm actually banyak je lagi situasi2 yg aku nk tulih sini..tapi aku da kering idea nak karang..nnt la klu aku ade idea lagi aku tulih for the second part..by the way, this is just to remind myself..anyone read this, klu terasa pk laa sendiri, klu aku salah aku mintak maaf..klu setakat terasa tamau pk sendiri suka hati laa..again aku tade niat nak wat sape2 terasa, this is just my thought..ape2 pon yang penting, everything happened actually with His will..so back to Him in any situation..tak kesah la sedih ke gembira ke susah ke senang ke..sebab kita hanya mampu merancang, Allah yg tentukan segalanya..wallahua’lam~~

life is so unpredictable~~

bismillahirrahmanirrahim
aiseyy it's friday..nope going to saturday actually..time is greatly fast..after few days of this week i thinks this is the suck week i ever had..on monday, my seminar, ceit wrong focus!!we even curik the lecturer's lecture topic..hailaa what to do..frustrated but still, its our fault too..what made me more disappointed was the night before i removed a slide which inside it was the things that she wanted..arghhhh just if i didn't remove it!!!!it's too late babe..just let it go..everything happened mesti ade hikmahnye kan..yup, i'm really believe this quote..

followed with highly tense tuesday..hishh i don't think i love surgery because i rily hate the suture part..i love to cut but to close back..ohh nooo..and because of my 'chenta overload' to cut, i'm the first to get scolded by him on that day..wahahhaa (mukaddimah tuuu) too semangat carik 'linea alba' till forget to put on skin towel first..huh!!what a silly mistake..amek ko!!ape2 pon, it's good to make mistake actually..i'll remember it forever, insyaAllah..

and here come the crazy wednesday..aku mmg x suke laaaa bile ade double tests on single day..it really made me felt like to give up..well i don't wanna comment on this much..just wait n see la when the result out..i don't even put any hope on this..trime je la ape yg aku dpt nnt..salah sendiri jgk mase lapang tamau study..haiyohhh sentap diri sendiri...ngee

thursday...haha should be surgery test on this day..but it was cancel together with the classes..so i used this time to seek for the case to present this becoming 3 weeks..hampir sejam, didn't found any case...huh!!the evening do the group works..for the first time, aku rase petang aku sgt berguna..congrate2!!!!

friday..huhu isi borg nak stay college with a little merit..hmm x kesah laa..ade rezeki ade..yg penting, i'm using the clean way..johan batu seremban???hahah sound funny but it's really happened..as long as it give me merits, i don't care..the interesting part was aku kene sound ngan guard depan tu..aku nk cepatlaa..dah le without my matric card, license, I/C hahah triple mistake in a single time..hishhh mmg la ko paah!!

tade tajuk tade topik

bismillahirrahmanirrahim

fuhh isnin da..sungguhla tak terasa langsung weekend this week..ape aku wat??ehh kebetulan tgh dgr lagu "what did I do today?"..sekali dgr sentap kot..well byk sgt buang masa kan..however, hujg mggu ni ape aku wat eh??

friday after class..

~kehujanan pegi mines dgn my WRQ443 tu..

~bought external hard disk 500GB n kaspersky internet protection..

~back at 9pm..

friday night

~install kaspersky

~kasi dewormer, anthelmint, antibiotic n vaccine kat laptop aku...(byk gle parasit,virus)

~update laptop (susun2 segala jenis doc ntah ape2)

~ tranfer clive, lecture n seniors notes movies n dramas..(curik kt zul pnye harddisk)

~siap sume ni dlm pkl 1 lebey2..

saturday

~pkl 12 pegi rawang, kenduri..should get going on 11, but wait for pakcik2 bersiap lame beno..hohoho

~balik dr rawang, sggah petronas..wira tu pon nk mkn gak..haaa ckp psl petronas, ade la 3 org pkck pki bju uniform polis..hakk aku igt suksis..ceit..gaye penuh tangungjawab mintak lesen tuan punye wira..bwk kuar buku catat2..mcmla org tataw niat nk ngorat kawan aku..ceit..tak macho laa gitu..belom ngorat pon da kene reject la bro..sian kawan aku gabra pnye pasal terlanggar tebing sampai bocor tayar..hailaaa tak pasal2 aku posing tepi jln ngan lgi sorg anak kapal wira tu..hohoohoho

~siap tukar tayar, pegi mkn..fastfood..hermm satu lagi nasib malang hari sabtu..mmg lepas ni aku x masuk lagi da kedai tu..sunguhla membuang duit aku je..bubr kat situ, gaya budak lima thn belajar masak nasi x jadi je..see tak pasal2 aku dah termasuk golongan membazir, erti kata lain 'membazir tu kan ikhwanussyaitan'..nauzubillah..

~balik solat mgrib..disebabkan migraine yg menjadi2, aku baring..tutp mata..buka balik mata, da pukul 12..sungguh nyenyak dan lena aku mlm tu..

sunday...

~well aku bgn 12 lebih mlm da kire ahad kan..so aku mendigest info utk seminar hari isnin ni..huwaaa cuaknyee..parasitology seminar..

"ya Allah, hilangkanlah kekakuan lidahku agar mereka mengerti perkataanku, amin!!"

~around 5 a.m aku tdo balik..

~8am laundry, continue with parasite..around 10 went to stadium..vet sport's day, the ending!

~last minute participant for cheerleading..haha klakar tp interesting..aku jd penonton je la..

~tarik tali..huh first time aku wat bende tu..perhh sakit pinggang beb..menang ngan dvm 1 je..ngan dvm 2,4,5 haiii..haha x cukup besar rupenye dak batch aku..hahahahh

~ptg..alamak..aku lupe nak wat checklist surgery..fuhh sebbaek igt belum mlm lg..heh n naseb baek jgk aku assistant surgeon mggu lepas..so x byk sgt checklist..x sebyk checklist surgeon laaa..

dah laaa malas nak igt ape aku wat..btw this becoming weeks, got three tests..patho of cvs, muscle and bone, kambing n biri2, n surgery..haii sungguhla byk tests dlm hidup student ni.. nah digest ni..semangat sikit laaa zaidar~

wachaaa sakit kepala~~

Doa tenangkan hati, elok diamalkan bace doa ni before belajar n selepas solat bace la jugak..Hurm kepala aku sakit..dunno y??aku rase Nescafe hari ni dlm keadaan terkawal..tade overdose rasenye..tp kple aku sakit jgk..this Friday (ehh esok je dah), test CP..CP is clinical pathology..bukan my kakak Chen Phing taw..hhoho btw CP aku masih dok digest neutrophilia..aku rase mcm aku pnye neutrophil pulak yg nak increase ni hah..due to stress, increase of cortisol level..haha ye ke??kang aku cek..whoaaaaaaaaa aku tataw asal mlm ni aku rase semcm je..1. mgkin sbb kepala aku sakit..mlm ni tamau telan NSAIDs..hehe 2. Dr td aku sedar dlm kepala aku mcm ade radio dok ulang lagu ‘Permaidani’ je..

Bentangkanku permaidani..

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Aku tataw lirik ni betul ke tak..klu slh mmg sah radio dlm otak aku ni yg tingtong..hahah but anyway, kenape eh..makin lame aku pk knpe, makin sakit jd nye otak aku..so biar je lah kenape tu??kang aku tdo, esok pg klu aku bgn still sakit kepala, aku sambung pk kenape tu esok je..aku rase ape yg aku taip ni pon dam cm gaye org tingtong je..lantaklaa, aku phm..sape x paham, abaikan..tp ade baiknye klu doakanlah aku dpt ketenangan eh mase test CP nnt..wohoo takot lak..

Oh ye, hari ni 11 mac, so selamat ulang tahun buat

1. Abdul Rahman Ramdzan di Cairo University

2. Mohd Zaim Mohd Nor di Universiti Malaya

~~May Allah bless both of you, amin…

the update rant~~

Salam

Wahh sangat lama blog ni sepi x bersapa..hoho klu aku mengikut betul2 list things to do yg ade, mmg sgt bz..tp disebabkan aku kurg disiplin bab tu (heh aku sedar diri beb), maka aku x de lah bz pon..yeah byk gile masa aku jln gitu je..manusia kan..bile da suntuk baru nk sesal..aku slh sorg dr golongan tu jgk..aku risau laa..tp aku tataw ape nak wat..mcm mane eh nak disiplinkan diri..ahhh kan best klu ade org nak denda klu aku x buka buku..mcm, klu aku x stadi at least 1 subjek (klu da mls sgt laa) kena libas 10 kali ke..hmm agak2 jalan x eh??tp sape nak wat??sape nak libas aku??hailaaa ade sorg lecturer aku ckp, “mase skola rendah, cikgu ajar nak gi tandas mintak izin, ape2 la nak wat mintak izin, tp bile da msk university, nak kuar tandas maen redah aci suke hati je gaye tade org kt depan”..so mksdnye mase kecik punyelaa beradab da besar mane adab tu eh??aku pk gak..btul gak kan ape yg lec aku ckp..tp once again aku juga tergolong dlm golongan yg same..asal sume golongan yg aku join ni kurg sedap ek..(jwb sendiri la Farhah)..

Aku sekadar nak update je actually, tapi aku tataw nak throw ape..sejak 2 menjak ni aku kurg pk laa..x mcm last year, jln gak otak aku ni..again ape mslh sbnrnye nih??heh ntahlaa..haa this becoming weeks mmg byk bende nak kene wat ni..tests, group assignments, presentation, seminar…wah3..gini pnye byk, aku leh rilek lagi…gaye genius gile la tu…results tests 1 da mcm org x pna blaja je…amek ko!!!sape suruh stadi gitu..be serius beb..org laen boleh je xkan ko x leh..ape beza ko ngan diorg hah???otak same je sume..yg beza, mls ngan rajin..maka aku tergolong dlm golongan pemalas laa sebenarnye kan?kan?kan??(ehh sedar rupenye)..sebab sebenarnye Tuhan tu adil..He regards us according to our action..so mean that what I got during last tests is according to the acts I took..btw, klu da tahu tggu ape lg..jln la ke depan..tayah toleh lame2..x bertukar pon result ko Farhah oiii..u know what u do, u know what make it be like that, so change la ur way..pengalaman dapat result teruk da berbeakul kot..x cukup2 lagi ke??pengalaman dpt result mantoppp meletopp sebakul pon x full lg..so jom gi isi bakul pengalaman mantopp n meletopp jom…haha whatever it is, chaiyokkk!!!all the best!!