the night lesson~~

salam pembuka kata
hurmm lame gak aku menyepi..well nothung much i think about..so i had nothing to throw here..this post pon i think just for the update..ngee
sekrg aku dah genap seminggu kat kampung halaman..ingat masa hari last praktikal di ivm..IVM is institut veterinar malaysia kat kluang..heh bukan maen semangat aku mau pulang..ye lah da lame sgt x balik...i even missed my big bro's engagement day..huk3...back to last day kat ivm..semangat aku nak balik sampai tertinggal maruku n megi yg x habis mkn tu..kesian bagha nak ngangkut makanan2 aku tu..ingatkan tinggal mknn je tp ade lagi haha..thp semangat aku melonjak ke thp infiniti bile waktu maghrib menjengah..selesai menunaikan kewajipan aku, it's time to go to the bus station..hehe wawa's uncle drive me there..together with her of coz..plus sima and wawa's cousin..hmm then bus sampai and well i quite disappointed with that bus..aku akan duduk di dlm bus 4 seat tu selama about 10 hours..huh?? hilang semangat aku nak tido sejurus naek bas..thank God my seat mate pompuan..ngee
da naek bas..duduk dengan keselesaan yang kurang..aku teringat mak aku..hmm gonna call her to tell about my depature..but then BANG!!!!mane hp aku?????semua poket aku seluk..poket suar, poket sweater, poket bag..NAI!!!terkocoh2 aku cari phone..thank God jugak, aku dapat seat mate yg x kedekut..she handed me her hp..so aku call la wawa..i don't know lak si wawa ni ade tabiat x angkat phone if she doesn't knoww the no..i tried for the second time..frust lagi..ahhaa sima!!i dialled sima next..alhamdulillah dia jwb..tp phone aku still x de dlm kete tu.. i get back to the bus and bas pon da jalan..aku still buntu x taw mane phone aku..that girl help me again..she ask my no and dialled.."hello ni fakhri,kawan najwa ke?phone ni ade dlm viva..gegar viva ni td" hehe so careless la me..hp tu dlm wawa pnye viva upenye..da taw hp tu kat mane boleh la aku tido..
dalam pada aku dok ngelamun jauh pkkan kecuaian aku tu, sekali lagi aku dikejutkan oleh the girl beside me.she said someone called may be..haha i recognised that no, so i picked up..yes sim, what's up.."ko da called mak ko belom??aku call kan eh?"..my sima agak risau fikirkan family aku yang mungkin akan menghubungi aku..maka aku asked her to call my ayah using my phone..its FREE..hohoh thanks sima..
so skrg i'm not having my phone with me..currently used my mom's phone for purpose of the alarm..hehe dah terbiase bangun pagi ngan alarm hp kan..ngee..bosan jgk hidup without my own phone..heh sepanjang kat umah ni aku mengulang novel2 yg ade je..aku x bwk balik novel2 aku pon..da bosan ngulang novel..kuar cari novel baru..cari nove tri writers sebab dalam tu ade cite baru dari Hlovate, my fav writer..tapi x ketemu di bandar serba sederhana macam pendang ni..haha tp ade novel 9 nyawa kat situ..layan je lah..not bad la cite tu..ade msg tersendiri..hehe now on my way merangka secara kasar my prac report hoho..

something i got in one night..
hitots: hp better be in my pocket, so that i know i may not forget again
futats: remember the phone no of people who are always with you, so that when there is any urgent, easier for you to contact...esp when you lost your phone..so don't just save the no without trying to remember!!jgn igt no bf je...haha ade ke???
mits:it's good to ignore any phone call that you don't know..but just i think it's better to pick up for the first time..might be your friend which in urgent situation..if prank call, ignore yg second loo..ngee
yots: if you are facing an urgent situation, calm down and stay cool..think carefully and try to recall back..then go to the action after thinking of coz..
last but not least: jgn terlampau gembira sbb mungkin akan diikuti dengan kesedihan lepas tu..ape2 pon sentiasa kembali pada Allah..becoz setiap sesuatu yg jd pada kita mesti ada hikmahnye..cuma kita kena sabar dan mungkin hikmah tersembunyi tu adalah sesuatu yg kita x nampak..tp ia tetap ada..well He know the best for us, His creation.

~the war begin~~

26 oktober 2009 ++veterinary problem investigation++

27 oktober 2009 ++veterinary pharmacology and toxicology++

30 oktober 2009 ++infection and immunity++

04 november 2009 ++veterinary parasitology 1++

09 november 2009 ++veterinary pathology 2++

11 november 2009 ++veterinary virology++

hepi besday shak!!!~~

Salam…
This post specially dedicated to one of my beloved friends…
Oy!!kau taw tak??
Sedar x sedar da hamper 3 tahun kita kenal kan
Mule2 aku nak kawan ngan kau ngan wawa malu2 je (aku la)
Mase tu takut jugak kehadiran aku x diundang
Tp mungkin takdir da tertulis kot, kita serasi jugak sampai skrg…
Kau taw tak??
Kau ni klaka sgt
Respons kau mmg x dijangka
Mmg spontan habis yet kelakar gile
Wahh bleh join nabil sudah..nnt aku wat request kat tv9 jemput ko p studio nabil eh..haha
Tp aku nak bagitau kau satu rahsia la
Aku seriously terhibur gile kawan ngan kau..(x tipu ni)…
Kau taw tak??
Kau selalu cakap kau kasar tp aku rase sebaliknye
Kasar mane pon seorg pempuan tu, tetap ada lembutnye
So aku rase hati kau lembut n perasaan kau halus n tulus sebenarnye
Aku kagum ngan kau bila kau sangat mudah mengakui silap salah kau
Shows that hati kau baik dan kasar kau x disengajakan…
Kau taw tak??
Ade satu hari tu kan, aku rase mcm nak makan kau je sbb geram sgt
Tapi bile aku kat bilik aku pk2 balik aku pon salah jugak
Then aku cancel nak mkn kau x jadi sudah
Dan yang paling penting kita tetap kawan till now…
Kau taw tak??
Thn 2 dvm paling banyak kita gaduh haha
Aku tataw apsal kau cepat terase ngan aku
Aku pon cepat terase ngan kau
Tp aku nak ckp gak kat kau
Sebenarnye kadg2 tu aku tader niat ape2 the words out hurts you without my conscious
So bak kata kau la kan “terlajak kata buruk padahnya”
Mmg 100% betul ckp kau tu…
Kau taw tak??
Everytime kita gaduh kan aku da jangka
Aku akan dpt msg ‘chenta’ dari kau
Aku rase slalu kau yg bg dulu, aku jarg start
Tp believe me aku tetp mengaku aku salah jugak
Aku simpan je dan kau taw la apa jd bile aku sorg2 kat bilik
Klu x salah lebih 3 kali da aku gaduh ngan kau dan itu akan jadi…
Kau taw tak ??
Sekrg kadg2 aku rase jauh ngan korg walopon dekat
Mungkin sebab dulu aku slalu lepak bilik kau siap tdo sane lg
Tp skrg da laen (benci kolej tukar blok..x suke!!!)
Which make me kadg2 sunyi je
Seriously aku rindu gile nak lepak bilik kau lg…
Kau taw tak??
Walaupun aku sunyi kat bilik aku
Aku tetap happy sebab aku leh jumpe korg kat fakulti
Which make me x sabar2 nak pi fakulti tiap2 pg..hehe
Aku happy jugak sebab walaupon kau dan aku paling banyak gaduh dulu
Kita masih tetap kawan sampai hari ini..still kamceng gitu!!...
Kau taw tak??
Kau ni caring sebenarnye
Aku tau kau care jugk pasal aku kan walaupon da laen wing
Kau still ajak aku mkn bila kau bwk mknan
Aku nak kasi taw kau, aku hargai semua makanan yang kau bagi..hehe
Aku rindu kek coklat la…
Kau taw tak??
Aku banyak je lagi nak tulis nih..
Tp aku rase aku simpan je lah sampai next birthday pulak kot
Tggu kenangan kita bertambah lagi smpi tak cukup 10 page nak taip
Anyway, now sincerely from the bottom of my heart, I’m wishing you,
Happy 21th birthday!!
Have a great birthday!!
Friend forever ok!!
Aku sayang kau, shak!!!
With love,
-farhahzaidar-

fail vs success~~

dreaming of something, work for it, failed n frustrated but keep trying...

working on something follow the flow, whatever you get, accept it, continue live as it is...

hurmmm which one is better???

so, means that the first one is better lohh...it is ok to have a dream actually...by dreaming of things you'll work for it...so it is like cofactor to work hard jgk la...if failed, don't give up and keep trying and change the way you approach your dream...the desire to success and get the dream must be higher than the fear to fail...then you'll feel the success by your own work with a great feel...hehe the key is trust yourself...ready to fail is actually prepare to be success...after all, failure is a success if we learn from it rite??

FINAL COUNTDOWN:: a week from now...huish am I ready??????

the friday tears~

salam aidilfitri...
masih dalam mood raye...even byk gile keje n tests...raye tetap raye kn...
ape bende nk taip nih ek...hmm well recently, ade je bende x kene ngan aku ni...
perasaan berubah2..kejap marah..kejap sedih..kejap happy..kejap sunyi..argghhh
hati tenangla hati..jgn gelisah ngan dunia, hati..lalui dgn tenang..tiap dugaan tu ada hikmahnya..
jumaat lepas, i'm shocked got 10 missed calls from my mom, dad n aunt...
my heart beat surge suddenly..my brain cell connected each other abnormally thinking of so many thing that could be the reason for the calls...arghh too much wondering the bad things... bad influences from novels...thinking the unnecessary things,,huhu..back to d story, i got a msg too..from my aunt..."ah awat hg kalut sgt..pasai pa??".. fuhh my head puzzled again... what happened actually?? i dont know..really i don't know...i can't focus on my pharmaco anymore... i may need some tranquillizer that time...hmm to get the answer i called my dad..talked to my mom...
my aunt got a phone called from a girl requesting to talk to her mom...my aunt ask that girl "ah ke ni?"..she replied "yes"...my aunt run to my house to get my mom..then my mom get shock hearing whatever that girl said, [let it just us know what she said]...from that word, my mom can't stand to do any work at all...oh no mom believe me, i never said that to you...the truth is the girl that phoned is not me...there is some misunderstanding there...whatever it is, she should not said that word....seb baik aku x de kat kampung...kalo aku ade aku sepak ko melelong...mulut jage sikit..cakap baek2 bukan susah pon...da lame aku sabar dgr ko ckp...x de bhse elok sikit ke...makin besar makin melampau...
hmm i cried heard from my mom...she never heard that word come from me...yeah memgla aku pon x pna ckp gitu ngan mak aku loh...gile sedih tersentuh hati aku...aku tataw kalu aku betul2 ckp camtu, ape la perasaan seorg ibu yg sekian lame berkorban demi anaknye..serius sedih gile...agak agak a nak marah pon..sedih bile dgr mak aku ckp "mak terkejut la. hg x pna ckp camtu, maki maki org tua. pastu x percaya yg mak ni mak hang. ketaq lutut mak ni kak..xleh nak wat keja apa dah"... hati keras camne pon leh nangis a..x pna aku rase sayu dgr gitu...ye la aku tataw pape...tbe2 je..padahal salah org...

ibu, diri ini terlalu byk menumpg padamu
menumpang dalam rahimmu
menumpang dalam mahligaimu
menumpang setiap titik susu pertama darimu
menumpang hasil titik peluhmu

ibu, diri ini banyak berhutang jasa padamu
terlalu besar pengorbanan darimu ibu
buat diri ini yang masih terkial2 mencari arah
ibu akanku berikan yang terbaik buatmu
akanku berikan kejayaan sebagai pulangan padamu

ibu tika ini diri ini masih belum mampu membayar segala lelahmu
mungkin juga sampai saat akhir nyawa pun belum mampu aku mengganti jasamu
namun ibu, percayalah diri ini amat menyanjungimu
tanpamu ibu siapalah aku, dimanalah aku
ibu kata2 sayang dan penghargaan mungkin belum pernah kaudengar dariku
tapi aku tetap menghargai mu ibu
aku sangat menyayangimu ibu
cuma masih berat lidah ini untuk mengungkapkannya
aku yakin suatu hari nanti akan kuungkapkan jua
terima kasih mak..kakak sayang mak!!!

me and my pencil~~

salam aidilfitri...

hope it still not late for me to wish you guys a happy eid...maaf zahir batin ya...I read a book recently and found a story about a pencil...so I modified it a bit and post it here...I like that story because of the massages it left for me...so enjoy it...hoho

Ichi: A pencil can write anything by the hand which hold it…so let’s put myself at the pencil’s place…I actually capable in many things but then I must never forget that there is a hand guiding my steps...that hand I refer to God…because everything happen surround me is actually with His will.
Ni: Now and whenever I still need to stop writing and need to sharpen my pencil…this may give suffer to the pencil…but then after all the suffer, it will sharp again…so again me too…I need to bear certain pains, sorrows and suffers which later will make me a better person…I also found quote in Quran said “with the hardship there is relief” which mean dengan setiap kesusahan tu pasti ada kesenangan yang akan menyusul…in surah [Ash sharh 94:5-6]
Sang: whenever I wrote wrongly, the pencil always allow me to rub off my mistakes…and I can write again the correct one…so this means that I always can make correction in my life too…correcting something I did actually is not necessary a bad thing…beside, I helps me to be on the road of justice.
Yong: the important part of the pencil is not the exterior wooden coat, but the graphite inside…so I need to be always pay attention on what is going on inside me…in fact in our Quran also mention that “dalam diri manusia tu ada seketul daging yang akan menentukan baik atau jahat manusia itu”…something like that the quote…if I wrote this wrong, anyone feel free to correct it ok?...
Go: the pencil actually always leaves marks…so in the same way, on whatever I do in my life actually will leaves a mark…so I need to be more conscious on each of my action…and also be responsible on each action…like been remind in our Kitab… “to any of you that chooses to be forward, or to follow behind-every soul will be (held)in pledge for its deeds” [Al-Muddaththir 74:37-38]
So as summary, I need to remember that everything happen is by Allah will, whatever hardship I need to go through so that I will improve, whatever mistakes correct them, control my heart and the feeling inside me, and beware on my action think before do anything.

yeah I'm single~~

Salam ramadhan almubarak
Hmm well don’t really have much time to update…hehe don’t have any thought to throw too…these two weeks surely very busy weeks till I don’t have any interest to study at all…so tired yet lazy…haha but then still need to study…pharmaco test will be tomolo…aiyyakkk…don’t even finish my revision yet…ohhoo so many drugs to remember…

Ahha forget bout that for a while…lately I feel like soooo lonely…haha thinking of if I have someone rite now, sure best…haha sound desperate je…but don’t get me wrong k?? I’m not so desperate…sehat je aku hidop single mingle haha…tader la sampai nangis2 every nights cause of loving someone but my love been rejected…bodohnye aku klu aku gitu…haihhh sound so silly gitu…kuikuikui back to my lonely lately td tu…then I open up my mail box…to check mail of course…huhu I got a mail entitled “usah risau jika kau belum berpunya”…I read this already…but because of that “silly lonely feeling” I read it again…

“Thank God, I am still single.”…that’s what I can say after reading it…(x kesa la bape kali aku bace, aku still said that)…we just human being rite…we dunno what Allah prepare for us in future…the most important one, I just wanna improve myself to be better…live the life I have now to the fullest…hehe

“Akhawatku,Kuhembus nasihat ini kepadamu tanda kasih dan sayangku kerana Allah. Bagi yang belum berpunya, andalah pilihan Allah untuk mekar terpelihara sehingga tiba pula giliran anda mendapat seruan. Yakinlah! Jangan risau jika masih belum berpunya kerena mungkin Allah ingin bagi ketenangan dulu buat anda, untuk terus melangkah menggapai cita-cita. Usah peningkan kepala. Dia menguji anda sedikit masa lagi”

From that paragraph, I hope that I am one of those women which still “mekar terpelihara”…I’m not said that those who having their lovers now, not ‘terpelihara’…don’t get me wrong k?...we all have our own life, just stay your life by your own way…hehe as for me, I hope I’ll stay single till the time comes…I never know, when…I’ll just continue my hope on Allah…I’ll just work on my list of improvements so that I’ll become better…because I trust with the promise that my Lord state in the Quran, “perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik dan sebaliknya”…so I wanna be perempuan yang baik, so that I’ll get lelaki yg baik later…well Allah knows the best for me and I believe in fate…if I having my lover rite now pon, if he is not for me, I’ll never be with him rite??...yeah may be some may say that, we need to “usaha” to look for our match…yes I don’t deny that…but I believe the is a way taught to us in our religion rite…so why don’t we follow those steps…rather than we searching for someone, the cintan canton without any ikatan pon…it will just increase sin of zina…well I realize that “things are easier to be said than done”…but if we want, we struggle for it, nothing is impossible kan…kita mampu mengubahnya!!!hoho

“Akhawatku,‘’Benar bahawa lelakilah yang memulakan langkah pertama dalam lorong dosa, tetapi bila engkau tidak setuju, lelaki itu tidak akan berani. Dan andai bukan lantaran lemah gemalaimu, lelaki tidak akan bertambah parah.’’Cinta sebelum berkahwin itu hanya menjerumus ke lembah dosa dan zina. Jika mampu bertahan kejinjang pelamin sekalipun, percayalah bahawa rumah tangga itu takkan berkat. Apa tidaknya, asasnya dibina daripada dosa dan maksiat.”

healthy animal got parasite??~~

Salam ramadhan almubarak
Hmm why this lazy syndrome come when my assignments is towering huh??hoho so many things need to be done by this two weeks before the holiday for the eid…haih really need to manage time properly…but then this lazy syndrome, how to treat huh???bley ke pki drugs??haha opioid??sedative/tranquillizer??anaesthethics, local??injectable??dissociative??or anticonvulsants??or analgesics??or CVS drugs??or GIT drugs??hoho if ade “anti lazy drugs” confirmed that company yg release that drugs untung besar…haha ape la aku mraban nih…ni bahana so many drugs to remember…haha how come I’d dreamed to be a pharmacist long long time ago if this no of drugs pon I think it’s a lot ehh??hmm well that one old school pnye story maaa..now struggle to be vet lohh..
Hmm I wanna throw a thought here…hmm got this idea during the parasite lect…while listening to the extremely energic lecturer, I digested a quote by him this morning… “a healthy apparent animal does not necessary do not have any parasite” something like this la that quote…for this particular subject, I understood what he wanna talk about…but I don’t think it need to be written here..hoho
What I wanna share bout that quote is if we applied that to our reality..our daily routine life…let change that quote a bit “a happy person does not mean he/she does not have any sadness”… “a person looked very kind one does not mean he/she really kind”… hmm why my post this time so unorganized ehh..by the way I just want to continue…lantaklah klu x phm..tp x susah pon hahah…well after living this so challenging life, I manage to learn the varieties of people surrounding me…sometime we made wrong impression on someone…but then after knowing them, we know them better, we know what the step next for our own pnye kebaikan gak la…let say, if u know someone and u think if u continue be friend with that person, u’ll suffer, so go away…haha but jgnlh sampai putus sillaturrahim…just don’t be too close je…same thing goes if you know someone, u think u get benefit form that person and at the same time u give benefit to them, so get along laa…don’t be too easy to believe people u just know in short time…don’t simply make decision, because you will regret later…haha take time, thinking and if need wat istikharah ke…just don’t judge a book by its cover…
The next case if we looked at someone happy2 je, does not necessary he/she x de problem…but then that person really secretive may be…do not really show his problem to others and also do not ever let the problems control themselves…but they are the one control the problems…haha memg terabur la post nih…x pe lah…btw, aku mmg nak sgt be like this…try not to let my probs controlling me…but then still x success lagi…mean that I need to learn more more and more…so go back and learn more!!!well we live to learn rite…face whatever challenge, improve whatever skills, seek whatever knowledge as long as we still alive..grab the chances…come hell or high water, life must be go on…live well of live hell, we the one who choose…hoho cam x de kaitan je…x kesah la slightly pon jadik laaa…haha
[if you can’t fly, run.if you can’t run, walk.if you can’t walk, crawl.by all these means, just keep moving]

from the bottom of my heart~~

Salam ramadhan almubarak…
Now waktu zuhur…tgh2 hari gini otak aku tepu sket…(alasan biasa bile malas nak stadi)…ngaku je la ko malas paah…hoho…aku teringat sumthing benonye ni…aku teringat nak kasi appreciation tu my laling2 (najwa sharipudin, shakira noh, farah aziz, simaa alway, julida jalil, dyana Hassan, n dayang kamaludin)… I think it’s not too late for me to thanks you girls…huhu dlm facebook tu temporary je…so I wanna make it permanent in my blog…kuang3… even masing2 ponat ngan dogathon stuffs…but girls u still manage to get a cake for my birthday…thanks from the bottom of my heart…but dah due thn korg sambut my birthday and I slept before that…hahaha I remembered last year one, dramatically woke me up by our best actress (u know who) hahahha…well I quite tertipu but very lalok that time…for this year very straight forward…got message from the same people jgk…on 1130 if I not mistaken…so x de la lalok sgt this year…hehe the same cake, the same peoples (minus maya )…but this time different place rite…at the court…thanks jugak girls for ur such wonderful presents…I’ll kept them nicely to show to my super2 grandchildrens hahahhahaah…but then, dyang n diyana one I’d finish them all…how to show huh??? Hehehe…fara, that cow is work…so you can throw the bill already…hihihi…ermm wat else eh…girls I wanna grab the chance here, to thanks you girls…and the most important one, I wanna apology too, forgive me girls if I’d done anything that hurt you with my conscious on not…maybe that time I’m under anaesthetics state, so that I can’t remembered whatever I said or whatever I did that you girls hurts but I didn’t know….huhu well everyone make mistakes right…we just human being after all…I hope our friendship will last forever…ade sikit2 misunderstand tuh, I hope we can take the benefit behind it…by that also we actually getting know each other deeper rite???and we at least can accept each other punye weakness…I have a secret on how to make our friendship last longer, dalam berkawan, kite kene pandai memberi dan menerima, jujur, ikhlas dan x berpura2 dlm segala hal…(mane ntah aku dpt nih….suke2 hati aku je) hahahha…anything wrongs yg our fren did, should be closed among us je… lagipon x elok buka aib org nih…because we do not know what gonna happened to us…hurm I think macam da melalut je ni…I better stop rite..if not I bley sampai kat antartika nnt…hahaha k lah back to pharmaco!!!hoho oh ya girls, I LOVE YOU ALL..MAY ALLAH BLESS US…UKHWAHFILLAH~~~

muke bahagie di hari itu..haha

we just borrow~~

Salam ramadhan almubarak…
By the title I wanna throw my thought on a borrower...As we all know, all of us are borrower…so it’s mean that whatever we have now is not completely ours…we just borrow them from God…the things we have in our hands now may go away in a blink of our eyes only…whatever He want things to be like, just said ‘kun fa ya kun’…how Powerful my Lord are…we as human being always forget bout this reality…once we have something we forget to be thankful to Him…that’s why, some of us will having difficulties whenever facing test of life…

As for me, I also sometime forget bout this…so when something happen to be mine gone, I’ll be very depressed, sad, frustrated, disappointed so on n so forth…oh God I’m a weak servant…forgive me my Lord…recently, I lost something…don’t wanna mention, let it just be me know…hoho…I felt like my world had come to the end…how unmotivated I am that time…hehe I wasted my time by thinking if I didn’t do that, or if I did it l like this and stuff bla bla bla…but I forgot one thing…may be my God is testing me… I found a quote in a book (didn’t remember the title)…the quote said:

“If Allah wanna give something better to His servants, He will test them first. To see how patient they are, how strong they are, and how they gain lesson from their experience.”

Subhannallah how come I didn’t think about this…I too depressed ‘meratap’ my lost till I forget the power behind this…hmm I have one thing in my hand right now…and I really love this…but I know I have to let it go…but I don’t know how…I just can’t let it go…I afraid of losing it…but then I’d try to let it go…actually I still on my way to do so…still struggling to make myself free from it…because I know it is not mine yet, and I need to let Him make the decision whether it will be mine or not…so guys, wish me luck to let it go ok?? Well I’m just a borrower after all…

For the end of this post, I would like to share something. My immune lecture had said:
“If you failed doing something, don’t think that it is the end of your world. Life must be go on and you need to make an improvement and do not repeat the same mistake”

random spill~~

salam ramadhan almubarak
so depressed!!!huh can't tell why but i feel it...
very stress...because of that feel...
i don't feel like talking to anyone...
i wanna be alone for this time being...
i wanna let this feeling go away...by any route i don't care...
just go!!!let go of me...
argghhhh wat happen to me actually???
why i become like this...
frustrated...really2 frustrated...
dissappointed with myself...
but it is between me...i'll settle it myself later...
for the other one...i don't know how i wanna say it here...
ohh God...i really hope that i'll see the benefit later...the best benefit...
calm down dear...
the reality is, people never stop looking at others and talking about others...
people will only stop talking bout you if you no longer exist in this world...
so take it easy dear...it is enough for me if only those who close to me know who am i...
of course it enough for me if only me know who am i..what i doing...
as long as i don't interfere others' privacy...those, who like to comment on others..
why don't you go back..think bout yourself...
don't just look for others faults...nobody perfect!!!
you'll never realise your faults if you always see others wrongdos
remember!!!we don't know how long we will be given this soul..
there may be no tomorrow for us...we never know!!!

Forgive me, my Lord for all my sins

my dear, wherever you are, whatever you do, remember don't forget of Allah...back to Him... only He know the best for you...the things happen in your life is all with the will of Him... so don't ever feel uneasy on how people look at you...the important one is how He look at you...it is ok if org x suke you...but you will be in trouble if Allah don't like you!!nauzubillah...

to remind me...
"Celakalah bagi setiap pengumpat dan pencela, yang mengumpulkan harta dan menhitung-hitungnya, dia (manusia) mengira bahwa hartanya itu dapat mengekalkannya. Sekali kali tidak! Pasti dia akan dilemparkan kedalam (neraka) Hutamah. Dan tahukah kamu apakah (neraka) Hutamah itu? (yaitu) api (azab) Allah yang dinyalakan, yang (membakar) sampai ke hati. Sungguh, api itu ditutup rapat atas diri mereka, (sedang mereke itu) diikat pada tiang-tiang yang panjang." [al-humazah, 104:1-9]

dialog hati n akal~

salam ramadhan almubarak
salam kemerdekaan
hmm in the morning of 31st august,
i'm thinking am i independent enough???
me myself can't answer my own question...
is it too difficult to answer???
again i don't know...
am i really don't know???
no, i just don't know what is the best answer for that question...
so???
so what...erkk
am i independent enough???
no, not yet...
why i said so???
because i still depend on others...
who???
my parents of course...after my Lord
other???
what other...
other than my parents laaaa, who am I depend on???
err i'm not sure 'bout this...
why???
because i don't know...
why???
can i please stop questioning myself...
yes but after i answer this question, so why???
ohh please, this one is hard to answer and i don't want to answer...
i afraid of myself rite???
may be, but i have my own reason, please give me sometime...
hmm any answer so far???
ok i have one, my Lord is the best for me to depend on..whenever i need Him, i can just go and tell Him everything...He also the best savior...never leave me alone...hear to my so called rintihan...give me what i asked in my doa...too many things, this page not enough to count His 'nikmat'...even dakwat selautan pon x mampu utk menghitung kurniaan-Nya...so i glad to be alive till rite now with perfect health...alhamdulillah
huhu good then, why i said it is hard to answer earlier???what am i thinking of???
i don't know.just confusing myself..heheh....

**the dialogue between the 'hati' and the 'akal'...hmm??????????

lonely~~

ahhaaa
i'm alone this weekend...so sad
wanna go back...but i have things to settle here...
hmm so next time, do not postpone your work, paah!!!
padan muke ko...can't go back...haha miss my mom's cempedak goreng...hohoo
but still i will try use this time till the fullest...
settle my assignment...update my notes...
and review my patho...got test this wed..wish me luck huh..
wanna score hundred...fuiyoo tinggi cita2 kak!!!
it is not impossible, provided with good revision n understanding...
then give best effort that i have and with will of Allah i may get it rite???
deal, kalo ko dapat 100, paah, aku (paah) belanja ko!!!
anything just ask...but that is the deal!!! wanna accept it, Paah????
huhu so what are you waiting for??
still blogging???your time is money, never wait for you, dear...
enough!!!let's go to our strategy and start working hard now....
my aim is 1oo in patho test...
my step is study, study,study...
so i have the aim and the step now...
i going to stay regardless how many time it takes..
as long as i still got time...so i gonna use this as much as i can..
i believe in Allah..

He said
"Barang siapa mengerjakan kebajikan, baik laki-laki mahupun perempuan dalam keadaan beriman, maka pasti akan Kami berikan kepadanya kehidupan yang baik dan akan kami beri balasan dengan pahala yang lebihbaik dari apa yang telah mereka kerjakan."[An nahl, 16:97]

in other word, Allah give us reward according to our action...
so i have to make my action equal to level 100 that i want...
i also need to alter my study style, be smart..hohoho
and as everything i done perfectly in my part
i can't forget to leave it to Him...
because He knows the best about me...
so i gonna start my step now...
wish me luck, guys!!!!

be observant~

Salam ramadhan almubarak..
While waiting for the dawn, I like to share a story here…If anybody know how to catch the mosquitoes??...Yesterday, before starting the sporozoa lecture, my lecturer told the story about catching the mosquitoes…He had been practicing this for a long time, if I not mistaken, he did say, it’s about 2 years...what he did, he put the soap on his ‘tapak tangan’…just waving your hand to catch them…(jz like yoo rin try to catch the snow in my girl series) hohoho is it wave?.. arhh I’m not sure…just try to imagine ok…but anyway, he manage to get the mosquitoes…he even did the record for the bilangan of mosquitoes he caught everyday…hahaha how unique he is I think…so what he got from this so called habit is, he recognize that, the mosquitoes having the different habit actually…some of them may manage to escapes…some of them even like playing a trick with him, but still manage to escape…some are very fast flying…the most interesting one, these mosquitoes they tend to bite on the head region, where they know, by doing so, they will not been caught…

What he want to emphasis here is that even the mosquitoes also learn from their experience…what about us, human being who are given a super duper great brain from God??...so please use your brain well, do not abuse it!!!take a note also on how observant the mosquitoes are…so as a student, to be more specific as a vet student, we need to be observant and creative…observed the thing around you(tak kesa la yang berkaitan ngan study ke life ke)…and think about it wisely…you may get something different which others may not…while observing, try to create a new one on your own…don’t just follow things on how it been for the time being…may be with a small change you do, you may get something differ and may be special too…like in cooking, let’s say you wanna cook ‘rendang’…you get the recipe…you also look on how to cook that particular food…so what you do is, you change it a bit, like less your salt or add on some pepper and stuff…or may be you can add cheese???erkkk (ape la rase agaknye kalo rendang letak cheese hahaha)…so you will get something different and may be more delicious than the one you ate before???...who knows rite??just try and whatever you do wrong, don’t repeat it next time…as simple as that…you will even learn new thing on your own thinking and your own action…so be observant, be creative, be brave to try new things...

"Lo! As for those who believe and do good works, for them is a reward that wil never fail."

[Fussilat 41:8]

no title~~

salam ramadhan almubarak

i don't rili have anything to write actually..

so just type whatever word cross my mind..

currently waiting for azan maghrib hohhoo..

while waiting with do nothing..

i wanna post something..

somehow i don't have any idea..

hmm better put something than nothing

"change your mind set. study for the sake of knowledge. do not study for pass. if you study for pass, you will pass, but if you study for knowledge, you'll constantly gain knowledge and will remember for longer time, insyaAllah"

this quote i get from my patho lecturer during patho of cns lect..

well, let's try this so called advice from our lecturer..hoho

x rugi ikut ckp guru ni, anak yg baik kan mendengar kata..

waaa rojak sude..merepek btul~~~

honest to goodness

I red a book one day, it make me wonder and having really deep thinks on that words. will I marry me? initially i thought it is a silly question. as i go through that articles actually ask me on my behave, my attitude and my personality. huh my face got hyperemia for awhile. it asked me to imagine if one day, i met someone which is me, will i take me as my life partner? this question will give sudden shock on my vital organ. hoho



so i started do a deep thinking. i come out with some list of characteristics that i look for to be my life partner. then i compare it to myself. hoho definitely i have a lot to change. i had gone to far from my own path. i need to go back on my path, make a change and do myself improving.

actually there is no such thing like mcq, true false question about myself. it is me myself who will created question and the answer are all inside me. well i'll not lost anything if i'm trying to chage to be a better person right. actually, i'd started changing myself bit by bit, and i can say that i started to see the outcome of it, alhamdulillah. if i want, i do it, n with will of Allah i'll get it, insyaAllah.

see, even Allah had told us,

'this is because Allah has never changed a favor which He has conferred upon a people unil they change their own condition; and because Allah is Hearing, Knowing' [al anfal 8:53]

introduction

salam pembuka kata..
salam ramadhan almubarak..
well how i'm gonna start this..huh
dunno y i'm creating this blog today..
not rili intrested on this actually..
but well it's done..
let's just wait n see how i'm gonna progress this..
is it long lasting or hohoh dunno..
hope will be long lasting and intresting..
pe aku merepek pagi2 nih...hihihi
till then adioss~~